I had a really good day today. I ended up going to sleep last night around 3 am and then woke up at 6:11am without an alarm. I have not had a normal sleep schedule in a while :/ however, after cheer I was energized and happy. I ate sooo much this morning! It was great. Today I made my Halloween costume and it’s going to be super fly! I can’t wait to wear it at the party Eckerd is throwing. I feel so much better today because I know I will be able to get my grades up and even if I fuck up I still have time. :) Also I get to see my momma friday! yayyy! I am listening to really sad music right now but I find it completely lovely! <3 today is very peachy. And by that I mean life is sweet but it has it’s bruises. I think that its a good representational analogy.
Today I figured I should write about the things I like here at Eckerd. If you have read any of my previous post I was just so excited to get out of high school and into college. well I am so happy to be here. I could not see myself anywhere else right now. I love the people, the atmosphere, and I love that I can be my own person here and nobody generally cares. I love that I ride a tricycle, I love that I walk barefoot on campus, and I love south beach and kappa field for tanning. I feel like it’s extremely rare to live in such a paradise that I happen to live at. I do take for granted how awesome this place is sometimes when I think about my own emotions. In reality though, how often can you say I live on the water and I go to an awesome college? no very often. I love my major here I know it’s my calling. I think that taking the strong test in career development really helped me assess mu life goals. I am excited that eventually I will be able to help people and fix them. I think that it’s my goal in life. I like fixing things and people. Although maybe were all a bit broken and we all need help? Okay well I just love being able to be here and be me at Eckerd. I love love love it. I know I often say that I think it could be better but I think its something that I will always cherish.
Anyways, yesterday I talked about a lot of stressful issues and most people who read it became very concerned. Don’t worry about it I often get that random sad day where nothing makes complete sense and I just become psychotic. So for those who I have talked to thanks!
Guess what? it’s Thursday… you know what that means? It means that I have stupid lab in the morning and math homework due. Fucking Gross! lol I will be fine though. I mean this place is beautiful and everyone is beautiful! :)
Happier day. Yayy!
Okay so I am going to blog a lot tonight I have a lot on my mind and it’s all coming out. I have been at Eckerd College for over two months now. I am doing terrible in school, I never thought I was going to be so unfocused and confused. I live on the campus and it’s totally stressful, yet it makes my life so much easier. This past week or so I have been in a slump! I feel so stressed and anxious and even depressed. I cried today and that really sucked! I thought I was going to enjoy this whole experience but its really tough and I miss being a kid. I am having trouble with my boy relationships… well in fact I don’t have one at all which should be good for me because that means more time to focus. Well that’s a lie because all I think about now is who is cute and what not. Totally typical of me. I am also living with my roommate and that’s kinda odd. I am honestly with someone all the time. I am never not alone because we have very similar schedules. I love and hate it. I am really unorganized here. LIKE ALWAYS! I need to do laundry and clean my room. I finally will be home Friday for the first time in what feels like a year! I can’t wait to see my dogs and my family! I wish some people would text me right now. I feel lonely :/ I am an Eckerd College Cheerleader here. Thats pretty fun except we have practice like four times a week. Ew! anyways I have practice at 7 am tomorrow and I bet I will hate it like I always do. I am sitting in my room right now and people who are living in beta are cheering all the fucking time. seriously so annoying. Oh btw the EC soccer guys are mad cute and I add lots today. I probably seem like a fucking crazy person but I don’t care maybe they will like me ;) I hate chemistry and math more than anything ever right now. I am struggling to get a fucking D in those classes. Thank God I’m a psych major now who is failing… :/ I will get my priorities straight soon. I promise. I want to, I need to. OH and something that is on my mind is that I hate bitch tits so much, hop off! I want to be with this kid and you are ruining my game ;( I need better game! Someone better teach me my game! Alright that’s a bit of what is going on in my mother effing mind but I probaly could write an entire book of how I feel. :/
I haven’t posted in some time. I should probably keep everything updated more often. Alright, lets start with things that changed and what’s in store for the future. :)
I hope that was a little recap since the last time I posted. :)
gotta love it!
Today was the start of something new! I attended EEC (Explore Eckerd College) I started off the day by getting a picture in front of the school and then getting a crap load of clothes from eckerd all to label me as a college student, yayyy! Then, we went to the auditorium and learned about simi- important stuff.. then we toured my beautiful campus and had a great dinner. I ended the night at eckerd with going to an event where I painted stuff that glows in black lights and even had some kids paint my face. It was so great. Can’t wait to see what tomorrow brings.
I start August 12th and its for all the freshiesssss! yet I will have more credits than a lot of them.
Totally excited for this new chapter in my life. I love it!
I can’t believe my boss was so upset with my surprise mini vacation to Eckerd College. I totally understand that it is not right to call off but I mean for the most part I could have waited until last minute and called off the day of. I am staying in St. Pete this weekend for Explore Eckerd Day! This means I do a lot of wonderful stuff that gets me involved in my future college. Totally worth the money!
Tonight I am suppose to work at DQ. I seriously regret working there, worst job ever! It’s just so not worth the minimum wage. I get it if I were to make just a bit more or something but I don’t so why try? Honestly, being a manager at a fast food chain is not a huge accomplishment. You mainly work your ass off for shitty people and for chump change. It’s not worth it at all. That is not a career so why are you trying to make it yours?
I have a lot of homework I need to do. I plan on doing a lot soon! :) Goodbye, wish me luck at hell… erm, I mean DQ!
Tomorrow I am heading off to Fred Howard Beach.
I plan to be burnt to the crisp, therefore, aloe vera is a must!
To make tomorrow a success all I need is:
Blogging will continue tonight! :)
I’m in Humanities class right now. I am better than I was 2 hours ago. I finished my paper and took my test. I feel great. Tomorrow I don’t have to worry so much, however, I have to do my bio work and government. pfftt! Does it ever end?
I just learned in my humanities class not to be a gambler, thief, or a prostitute. Great! :)
I think I need to write later tonight…. so later for now.
It is Thursday, you you know that that means? Yes, I am in math class, therefore, best bloggage time.
NEWSSSS and shit:
very tired, going to try to do some hw.. byee